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Again, The Grim Reaper Does Not Rest

Remember last year, and the celebrities just dropping like flies?

Well, it is continuing unto 2017!

And how sad is THAT?¬† ūüė¶

BILL PAXTON, who went from bit player to fifth lead, to third lead, to romantic lead (!) to character actor.  (You KNOW how I love character actors!)

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bp2If you don’t follow Hollywood news, you will not have heard.¬† But, he passed away from complications after heart surgery Saturday at age 61!

And from all reports was a funny, decent, kind man.  (Sometimes, when these Hollywood folks go away, little is said about their character.  Because they are @$$holes.  Obviously, not in this case.)  He was married 30 years, and had two children.  Hardly stereotypical Hollywood.

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Stripes, The Terminator, Weird Science, Aliens, Miami Vice (TV), Navy Seals, Tombstone, True Lies, Twister, Apollo 13, Titanic, Big Love (TV), Hatfields & McCoys (TV), Training Day (TV) – just to name a few.

Word is the remaining episodes of Training Day are ‘in the can’ and will be shown.¬† Sadly, even if he had survived, word is also it would probably not have been renewed for a second season.

RIP, Bill.  You will be are missed!

 

Bittersweet

It’s February 8th.

Regular readers might remember this is my daughter Molly’s birthday.¬† In this case her 34th.¬† Sadly, she only made it to her 12th.¬† ūüė¶

(The twenty-second anniversary of the accident that took her from us is in about five weeks.)

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I try to remember happier birthdays.

Last year, another element was added to this date.

Bob Hall, my dear friend whom I met when were worked as private investigators together, who before had attended junior high and high school with my then wife-to-be, and later managed the Legendary Gun gun store (where I worked part time, for a while) in 2016 passed into eternity.  Complications from cancer.

See, I told you this time of year sucked for me.

People we care about love, passing way before their time is a travesty!

Please take the opportunity today to hug those close to you, and tell them you love them.

You never know…

 

It’s That Day, Again

First, please pray for the innocent victims and injured, if that’s what you do…

So many people were affected by 9/11.

Not all were the first targets and responders.

Here is one story:

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Debralee Scott

Ms. Scott is probably familiar to many of you, especially if you lived in the 70’s.¬† She was ubiquitous – on TV shows such as Mary Hartman Mary Hartman, Welcome Back Kotter, Ryan’s Hope, and movies like American Grafitti and Earthquake.¬† I remember her guesting on The Mike Douglas Show, wherein she shared she was the (uncredited) dead nude body of murder victim Anne Mary Deacon – as she was lifted from her shallow grave, in Dirty Harry!

Being (mostly) single, and in my 20’s during the 70’s, I always found her attractive.¬† So this part of her story saddens me.

Ironically, she died in Florida shortly after moving there from New York City to help an ailing sister. One day she collapsed and was in a coma for several days but awoke in the hospital and seemed to be fine for a spell. She was released two days later on her birthday. No explanation was given for the coma, but she seemed fine and in good spirits. Three days later she went to take a nap and never woke up. Cause of death uncertain despite an autopsy. She was cremated.

(…)

Her fiancé had been killed in the 9/11 attacks.

The mother of her fianc√© said Scott developed a drinking disorder shortly after the the 9/11 atrocities. She says, “Debralee has cirrhosis of the liver from her drinking.” The actress’ sister Jerri Scott adds, “She never did get over Dennis’ death.”. (IMDB)

Slow suicide?

We got the bastard, and many of his crew for the terrorist attacks.  But, are still fighting wars police actions overseas contingency operations against the forces who are determined to topple Western Civilization and establish a caliphate, with all the fundamentalist Muslim trappings.  Including Sharia Law.

How does one fight a war against a radical philosophy hiding within a religion, with no geographic boundaries?

We owe it to The Republic, the 2996 people killed directly, those killed indirectly, the injured, and their loved ones to find a way to stop this poison once-and-for-all!

Not to do so dishonors their memories.

REMEMBER!

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Life

It’s a cereal; it’s a board game. ¬†A defunct television series.

It also is what it is.

My favorite line from the James Bond books, is ‘M’ (the head of MI-6, Admiral Sir Miles Meservy) telling Bond when he complains about receiving an assignment change, “Things change, 007.”

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And that might be one definition of Life.  Things changing.

Of course, the best part are the good changes – grand nieces ascending from 6th Grade, and another graduating High School. ¬†Others having birthdays. ¬†A dear friend’s birthdays and their elder daughter getting her doctorate!

The bad?

That dear friend (Bob Hall) being unable to be present for his daughter’s doctoral degree.

Daily dealing with issues regarding aging, illness and finances – both my roommate and I.

Friends, relatives and acquaintances becoming severely ill. ¬†Some almost certainly in their way out, others hanging-in-there, but…?

And some already gone.  More than I ever expected.

Even some leaving voluntarily, but still present. ¬†Apparently, friends no longer. ¬†ūüė¶

“Things change, Guffaw.”

I haven’t needed a fictional intelligence department head to tell me.

I already know.

Things are as they are.

This just in. Ray Carter passed this morning.
Puts my whining in perspective.

It’s Official…

I’ve been ‘disabled’ since I was age 12. ¬†Legg Calve’ Perthes disease destroyed the cartilage and bone in my right hip, and was starting to attack my other hip and both knees. ¬†After much failed experimentation, ‘they’ were able to stop the advancement. ¬†‘They’ decided the best course of action was to cast me, fusing my right leg at the hip. ¬†In 1966.

So my right leg is substantially shorter than my left, and fused at the hip.

I’ve lived my life this way. ¬†I’m used to it.

And, anyway, a hip replacement is elective and expensive.

In spite of this (in my youth), I ran, played, jogged, walked, took Kenpo karate, lifted weights…all manner of things!

Sadly, this disability kept me from joining the military or becoming a cop.  Childhood dreams dashed.

But, in spite of my limitations, I never felt, well, disabled.

Yes, sometimes ‘it’ got in the way (like needing leg room to drive – straight leg, and all), but it never kept me from most things. ¬†I usually avoided wearing ‘Ed Sullivan-the really big shoe’* when I was younger, because I thought it made me look crippled. ¬†Which I was.

And I rarely felt sorry for myself.  Well, sometimes.

But Life brought the addition of a serious car accident, diabetes and lymphoma, all potentially more lethal.

And Diffuse Type B Cell Lymphoma is listed as the ‘official’ reason for my Social Security Disability Income.

As of age 58.

And I am still here, now approaching age 64. ¬†Wearing ‘Ed’ more often.

My roommate J. has been having her own health issues for many years. ¬†They needn’t be enumerated here. Surgery pending on some. ¬†Suffice it to say we don’t get to gun shows much, anymore. ¬†Too much walking.

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But she never asked for one of those disabled mirror hangers!  I obtained one a while back, and we kept in in her car, as she does most of the driving, her car being in better shape then mine.

She finally remembered to ask her primary care doc for the form to get one!  And got hers!

This meant I got to have and use mine for the first time the other day!

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It’s official – I’m a gimp!

*Ed Sullivan was an entertainment reporter who hosted a TV variety show, from 1948-1971.  He would announce he had a really big show, but pronounced it as shoe Рhence the pun.

 

Please Keep A Good Thought For Walter

Walter and I have been friends for over 40 years.  Walter

Not particularly close friends, or always in touch.  But you can see from my previous blog post (the link above) that he is a good man and friend.

I received word from a mutual friend yesterday that he’s been going through some difficult times. ¬†To say the least. ¬†His beloved girlfriend Bettina of (10+?) years, who has had many health problems, passed away recently.

And Walter attempted to end his life.  He is now in a rehab facility, due to the health problems linked to the medication used.

He is expected to be released Monday.

Walter’s apartment is infested with bedbugs – and they have sprayed so much insecticide that he cannot stay there for fear of illness.

Now he has no place to go.

His brother and sister are trying to help, but have their own limitations.

Please keep Walter in your thoughts, and if you pray, pray.

He IS a good man!

THIS JUST IN РI spoke with Walter last night.  He seems to be doing okay, considering.  He sounded medicated and very tired, and is using a walker.  I told him I would check back often.

‘Tis The Season To Guffaw!

I’ve been posting much about the constant encroachment of BIGGOV, and it’s depressing me…

Fortunately, it’s time for Seasonal Humor! ¬†ūüôā

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True Detective

(No, not the pulp magazine Robert D******* purloined from the convenience store when we had a sleep-over in my Dad’s camper, when we were in junior high! ¬†:-P)

We just finished watching Season Two of True Detective on HBO. ¬†Each season had it’s own story, characters, actors and themes. ¬†Season One was in Louisiana. ¬†This one was central and northern California. ¬†Both were in part produced by the lead actors from season one – Woody Harrelson and¬† Matthew McConaughey. ¬†Rest assured, this is no longer the Woody from the TV comedy Cheers. ¬†They are both consummate actors.

The theme carried over to Season Two is there is something larger, deeper, more sinister going on than first appears to the on scene investigators.  It takes the season to unravel the mysteries.  Both seasons consist of eight episodes each.

Season One took place over a number of years, following the rise and fall of career detectives in pursuit of a serial killer.  Season Two was revealed in a much shorter time frame, involving murder, political power and blackmail.  Both seasons were populated with extremely flawed, alcoholic, addicted and trapped detectives and career criminals, in extreme emotional pain.

Not exactly an evening of light television.

For the record, I liked both presentations. ¬†The critics were especially hard on Season Two, as over-complicated and not living up to Season One’s standards. ¬†It is still undecided if there will be a Season Three developed.

I’m certain both seasons are available on You Tube, Netflix, and the like.

The opening to Season Two, below…

GERDS Of A Feather

I’ve been prowling this Internet thing since the early 90’s.¬† (Remember dial-up? *shudders*)

It still amazes me how it can connect people from all walks of life, from all over the world.

I remember surfing bulletin boards on the IRC (Internet Relay Chat) and found some guys in Finland.  They found out I was American, and told me to go away!

I posted a few days ago about yet another medical adventure.  This time with my upper GI tract.  Seems I have GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) Рaka acid reflux damage to my esophagus.

I chalked it up to getting older and poor diet.¬† Whined about it and forgot.¬† (I’ve a tendency to post stuff, then forget about what I posted – as if I needed to get it out of my head.¬† Must be a writer(?)

The other day, I get a gift and nice note from a regular reader (who knew I had those?) whose reason was we both suffer from the same affliction!

Other people have sent me – and even brought me – gifts of money, ammo, and even single malt Scotch!

Sometimes, I feel unloved and forgotten…

FRIENDS, and the Internet are wonderful things!

THANK YOU!

Having Gratitude Isn’t Always Easy

I’m in whine mode.

(I know I said at the outset that I wouldn’t use this weblog for therapy, but, hell, it’s my blog, so here goes…)

Holidays suck.

Why?¬† Not only do I not have any funds to get neat presents for friends and family, but, I’ve no one with whom to share the non-materialistic parts of the holidays.¬† One terrific couple I know gifted me with a cool assortment of cheeses and beers (including Lindeman’s raspberry ale!), and all I could give them in response was a small bag of garlic goldfish.

Hardly an even trade.

I love my sister and her kids, and her kid’s kids dearly, but going to a family celebration alone with certain people in absentia is always painful.

Now it’s the downhill slide from the New Year, to Molly’s birthday, to the anniversary of the accident, in March.

We’re told the best way to get out of this kind of funk is to create a gratitude list.¬† So here goes…

I’ve a roof over my head, and a working car.¬† Thanks to my friends!¬† I’m on Medicare.¬† I’ve disability benefits, which, while in no way am I rich, I can buy food, gas, and pay rent.¬† I’ve a select group of friends, both locally and on the Internet, who help out whenever they can.¬† Many of these friends have gone above and beyond – for years – when I am unable to give back in kind.

This must mean something.

I’m disabling comments for this post.¬† Because, in lieu of giving me an Internet “there-there”, or a virtual hug (or a kick in the pants), please stop for a moment and create your own gratitude list.

It helps.

"Round up the usual suspects."

In Loving Memory…